Today I share with you from a humble and extremely grateful heart. In less than a month I will be 4 years clean, serene and free from the control of all mind altering substances. December 22nd, 2011….is the day I surrendered, and not to long after that I awakened and arrived.
Arrived means “to reach a place at the end of a journey or a stage in a journey.”
The more humble I became, the more my ego would fade out. And no I didn’t completely let go of my ego, and I still haven’t, but I do let go enough to observe life in a way that keeps me closer to my spiritual essence. Awareness, acceptance, forgiveness, compassion, gratitude, accountability and love are all words that became important in my life. The value came not from the literal words themselves, but the from the actual action and energy these words produced at every moment that I was aware and allowing them to work. So needless to say, awareness became the beginning and the end, hundreds, if not thousands of times a day.
Many people may be a bit closed minded and see the image that I attached to this post as an image that does not display a humble, egoless and grateful man. For those many, they most likely do not know, understand or used time to learn who I really am and how far I have come. Which is absolutely OKAY!!
This is why I am sharing today. Not to draw attention to myself (okay maybe I used the image to attract you in) but to bring attention to something important that I have discovered to have incredible value in today’s struggling society.
Before I get to that, I must mention that the truest part of “me” yearns to live a quiet life, free from technology,free from the blatant colonization of conditioned minds, free from hate, from anger and from the burden that is all that isn’t.
Yet, at the same time, the truest part of me also carries impalpable compassion for the beauty of all life and the limitless potential that is contained in the conscious minds of what really makes this perception a thing we call “Life.”
If I made a post every time someone genuinely said to me “you inspire me,” that is all you would see on my social media. These daily occurrences are constantly presenting themselves as an opportunity for me to work on being humble. I do this by acknowledging either under my breath or in response- that my ability to inspire comes from something greater than “me.” Over the last 3 years and much more just recently, there has been a lot of activity in my life that has resulted in people putting great value on my essence.
Whether it be from my actions, my words, my creations or just simply my presence...people intently watch, listen and get inspired. What’s amazing and humbling to me about this is a few things.
First off, I’m way far away from what most of society looks to for inspiration....I’ have yet to be millionaire, I live at home with my family, I drive a $2500 Subaru that I made look and sound nice and I dress in clothing that I either make or owned for the last 10 years of my life.
And secondly, 4 years ago I was locked in my room injecting heroin, cocaine and crystal meth into my veins.
If people value my essence and who I have become, then by default they are putting value on all the things that I have done or remembered to do in order to live a life of awareness and higher consciousness, including surrounding myself with loving encouraging people and having acknowledgement for a profound incomprehensible energy that many of us call God.
In a very rigid society, we can still make it our responsibility and intention to create from a loving place and display or follow through with these creations for the purpose of creating moments, events and inspiration so that others will have better chance to come to their own spiritually awakening realizations. And when they do...we share all we know!
The most valuable thing we can do for each other and our society is to be a living, breathing, dream manifesting examples of limitlessness from love.